Mark 11:25
25 And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”
I have been reading this verse over and over. I NEED to read it. I have been hurt over the years by some people and I have held on to the anger. Doing this has gotten me nowhere. It has made me a different person, an angry person, an uptight person, and a medicated person.
Will I ever be the same person I once was? Probably not, and I'm okay with that. I can learn to adapt and play the cards I've been dealt. I'm accepting things slowly.
In recent months I have learned that you cannot accept the present with out being forgiving and finding acceptance with the past. So this is me officially stating for all to see. I am going to take this particular scripture to heart and try to follow it.
I am letting this anger go! I am forgiving those that have hurt my family and me. I am forgiving those who have taken pieces of my life that are irreplaceable. These people may have broken my heart, my spirit, my family and even my faith at times. Its okay to break a part of me, but it wasn't ok to steal things I can never get back.
I am forgiving all of you and it will make my life better, make me better and make me lighter. You all will not weigh me down anymore. I am taking control back!
I don't want any regrets in my life and I know I will regret wasting my energy on those that have hurt me. I want my whole heart to be happy again. I also want to give what I expect to receive! God has helped me through all of this and and I know that with all of the time he has spent helping me deal with these things I suspect he would be quite disappointed to find that I let anger,harsh words, frowns, tears and a bad attitude take over my life.
Tia, thank you for this. It has opened my eyes. I do believe in forgiving, but I'm still struggling with it. I don't think you are suppose to forget, though. Our minds are not equipped to forget those who have hurt us, because hurt never goes away. So I am putting the people who hurt me out of my life. I don't mean people who hurt me as kids or just hurt me with one word, I mean people who have hurt me emotionally deep down inside and in my heart! But, forgiving? It IS what God wants us to do. But I think HE knows that we can't just do it right away. Thank you so much for sharing this with everyone, but especially me.
ReplyDeleteYou are welcome. Forgiving is hard when you have been hurt beyond words. There are not a lot of people who have hurt me so badly that I have had to pray for the strength to forgive. I have been reading this verse for a month now and last night I was given the courage to follow through. I do feel better this morning. I woke up clear minded and I am glad I have taken this step. I just decided that I have to put my whole heart into loving my family and friends. If I am carrying this weight around, it means my attention is divided. The people I love can't benefit from this kind of division.
ReplyDeleteNot sure what to say to this.
ReplyDeleteYes, but no. How do you forgive and not forget? Because if you remember, then you remember the hurt and then doesn't that undo all the forgiving?
I struggle with this, maybe we all do. Thankfully God doesn't expect us to be perfect, so you can only do what you do.
I say this all the time...Ik God wants us to forgive but as humans I dont think we can forget....I can forgive someone but it doesnt mean I have to be around them....
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