How much are our thoughts really worth?

Music is inspiring. It can make you think. Everyone hears something different in a song. You can find anything you want to in song lyrics. Some people find comfort, some find happiness, the meaning of life, darkness, or anger, some people relate to one another through something as simple as music. Funny how the simple thoughts of one persons mind can make you realize things or understand things in ways you never thought you could.

The Band Perry's song "If I Die Young" has a portion in it that really made me think. It opened my eyes to something I have personally struggled with in the past and what ultimately ended up killing my aunt and so many other women.


"A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I’m a goner

And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’"

Funny how so many women suffer an abusive relationship in silence. People question why? They ask "why would you be with someone like that?" "why do you stay around if he treats you so bad?" funny nobody really listens to your answer. It's fear. Fear of what will happen. Fear of if there will be a tomorrow. People who have not experienced the hold of a crazy man cannot understand. So asking for help can be hard. When you finally get the strength to ask for help out of the situation there's not always a lot of real support. There is however a lot of lecturing and questioning and "advice". Sadly cries for help often go unheard because many who are there listening aren't hearing. That's why that part of the song I have in quotes above touched me so deeply.

Those women who suffer emotional or physical abuse aren't always heard or understood. Why don't women leave these situations?? Why did Aunt Julie suffer through for 12 years? Can you understand now? Do you see why women live in fear of leaving these situations? Do you care about the thoughts running through the heads of these women who feel trapped? Why didn't she leave her relattionship sooner? I never had to ask. I knew. The minute I heard she left him my first thought was "he's going to kill her"

Most of the time though people don't realize the consequences suffered from being strong and leaving and a lot of the time when fear of leaving is expressed people listen but don't hear. They don't hear until it's too late. It's sad. It's hard for many women. My ex is crazy. I still wonder if his psycho ass will hunt me and Shane down one day and show up at my door. I only wonder though. I've moved on from fear. I'm not a bad shot and like I always said and will continue to say "I shoot first and call 911 later" my days of being scared are over. Now the only this I fear is wasting a bullet on his sorry ass.

So back to the point don't wait until it's too late to listen. You don't want to pay such a high price of finding out someones thoughts the hard way when you can call them up and pay the penny...